Another day working today, a day which went fairly OK but I wouldn’t exactly call it exciting. The weather was pretty reasonable though with some actual sunshine at times!
My evening walk has become more important to me lately. Every evening at 7PM I leave the house with my earphones in my ears and walk around the lake, normally stopping somewhere along the way. I see beautiful scenery, lovely wildlife, get to sing to myself and most importantly I get to be alone. An hour of complete isolation every day where I can seriously think about things, plan things and make decisions. I always pass people on these walks and this annoys me. I want it to be my private space. Of course it’s a public space and anyone can go there, but I would prefer it if they went earlier in the day. Anyway, here are a couple of photos from tonight’s walk:
On said walk the song “All these things that I’ve done” by The Killers came on and it got me thinking. What would the Dan of a year ago have thought if could have he seen into the future, i.e. now? I never expected to be single now. I’m still unsure whether I am better off like this or not. I couldn’t have imagined coping with three interviews at Universities. Except I did it and was given an offer by all three. I would never have expected to have become more outgoing. Sitting and eating lunch with other members of staff would have been terrifying to the Dan of a year ago. I wouldn’t have even expected to have 35 followers reading this drivel I call a blog.
So in summary, my life has changed dramatically. The only change that I guess is for the worse is becoming single. Perhaps though it will turn out to be good in the long-run. Right now though my teenage hormones are going crazy and every girl I see within three years of my age is a potential girlfriend. That’s what the desire part of my brain thinks anyway. The realistic part of my brain knows I have a chance with exactly none of these. But hey, I’m hoping the right person will appear sometime in the not-so-far future. If you fancy me, now would be a good time to make a move. That was the desire part of my brain speaking. The realistic part knows absolutely no-one will read that who is attracted to me whatsoever. The conflict in my head right now is crazy…
I'm sure it won't be long before you find someone as you're lovely! Good luck! :)
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My ipod is currently retired and I bike instead of walk, but my bike has an irreparable flat. But, I feel ya on the nature walks. Also, I the Killers are grand =D
ReplyDeleteI always think about what old me would think about new me. I've gone through so many changes in the past few years (3 different high schools, going to college, parents' divorce, etc.) and all of these have changed me and brought me to do things I never would have though I would do, let alone WANT to do.
As for being single, I don't think that'll last for too long, you seem like a great guy from what I've read, inside and out. I know it sucks, but don't rush into the first opportunity you get, because you deserve more than first-come, first-serve.
-Kala