Another day working today, a day which went fairly OK but I wouldn’t exactly call it exciting. The weather was pretty reasonable though with some actual sunshine at times!
My evening walk has become more important to me lately. Every evening at 7PM I leave the house with my earphones in my ears and walk around the lake, normally stopping somewhere along the way. I see beautiful scenery, lovely wildlife, get to sing to myself and most importantly I get to be alone. An hour of complete isolation every day where I can seriously think about things, plan things and make decisions. I always pass people on these walks and this annoys me. I want it to be my private space. Of course it’s a public space and anyone can go there, but I would prefer it if they went earlier in the day. Anyway, here are a couple of photos from tonight’s walk:
On said walk the song “All these things that I’ve done” by The Killers came on and it got me thinking. What would the Dan of a year ago have thought if could have he seen into the future, i.e. now? I never expected to be single now. I’m still unsure whether I am better off like this or not. I couldn’t have imagined coping with three interviews at Universities. Except I did it and was given an offer by all three. I would never have expected to have become more outgoing. Sitting and eating lunch with other members of staff would have been terrifying to the Dan of a year ago. I wouldn’t have even expected to have 35 followers reading this drivel I call a blog.
So in summary, my life has changed dramatically. The only change that I guess is for the worse is becoming single. Perhaps though it will turn out to be good in the long-run. Right now though my teenage hormones are going crazy and every girl I see within three years of my age is a potential girlfriend. That’s what the desire part of my brain thinks anyway. The realistic part of my brain knows I have a chance with exactly none of these. But hey, I’m hoping the right person will appear sometime in the not-so-far future. If you fancy me, now would be a good time to make a move. That was the desire part of my brain speaking. The realistic part knows absolutely no-one will read that who is attracted to me whatsoever. The conflict in my head right now is crazy…