Thoughts on being in debt, facial hair and emotions

Pretty much the first thing that happened to me today was the receiving of a letter from the Student Finance company. It informed me that they are loaned me nearly £7,000 for the first year of Uni. My first thought was “Yay, money” which was soon followed up by “I’m gonna have a lot of debt”. That’s £7,000, plus food, washing, toiletries and other expenses a year, for four years. That’s over £30,000 worth of debt but I have to bear in mind accommodation will cost more after the first year once I can longer stay in halls. I am estimating that it will nearly £50,000. I am going to be spending most of my life paying that back.

Geology. We did some exam practice by labelling some diagrams and answering some questions. I need to do a lot of revision.

Eng Lit. We watched the end of Atonement. Very depressing. As I missed half of it I shall read the book now and it’ll be useful for the exam.

After 6th Form I had my final Geology coursework-exam and this one seemed to actually go fairly smoothly but then again I think that about all of them and still do badly.

Now coursework is done and dusted, I can start revising properly. I find revising quite relaxing actually, it gives me something to concentrate on. And I started making one of my revision PowerPoint's again but worked out how to put in an animation so it’s a really interactive one this time!

Right, I’ve finally got round to talking about some things I have meaning to talk about for a while. The first of these is the growth of my facial hair and the constant questioning over it. I am growing a bit of a beard and I think it looks OK but it still needs time to grow and then I will have to decide whether to keep it or not.

Secondly is how I’ve been feeling lately. It’ll be three weeks this week since I became single and the way I feel seems to vary greatly. Last week I was really happy and cheery but over the weekend it really got to me again and I was once again upset. I’m like an emotional yo-yo. I think coursework distracted me from how I was feeling so I will try and bog myself down with revision. Even when I’m happy though there is still that horrible feeling at the pit of my stomach that I don’t think will ever go away…